The following is a story by a person who is sharing her story  which are reflections of  her working to make healthy decisions while in recovery.

There are things in life that are so simple for some people, but for addicts like me, it practically takes a sledge hammer to my hard head before it will sink in.

After previously being in active addiction for so many  years, it is difficult to distinguish whether the decisions I make on a daily basis are actually healthy or not.

Once we come into recovery, we have no idea whether these decisions are just normal for us until we seek support outside of our comfort zone.

Making healthy choices takes practice and it is somewhat of a hit or miss application of ideas that altogether make up our daily lives, one choice at a time.

Doing the next right thing isn’t some guru’s mystical resolve, it’s the result of thinking things through and make solid choices consistently.

In the past, I would have gone strictly on my feelings, on impulse and self-will, however, now I have the tools in place to make tempered and solid decisions that are based on the right things, not on a whim.

My ability to make healthy decisions depends on my capacity to learn what is necessary to stay clean for the rest of my life.

It can also be a good thing to learn in other areas of our lives once we get clean and start living a “normal” life.

Decision-making is a process and it takes lots of practice to get it right.  Throughout our goings-on, there are several big and little choices that make up the entire day.  If we use those choices to practice daily, it will become a skill that can be mastered to a degree.  The exercise at least gets us comfortable with the task of making decisions without delay or drama.

I know for a fact that the disease of addiction wants to kill me and that my daily decisions play a huge part, so I must keep that in mind.

As I’ve grown in recovery I’ve discovered new ways to handle situations that come my way.  Many times I have felt that I was at my wits end and I’m certain that there will be many more times when I have difficulty handling a situation.  I am sure when that times comes, I will not panic and I will not resort to desperate measures.

My recovery depends on my ability to stay positively focused on my daily life as a whole, keeping my eyes wide open to the possibility that a relapse is just around the corner if I leave a door open for it.

For now, I am clean and that is as good as it gets for today.  I am grateful for that.

What courage this person has and we pray for her continued recovery.

kommonsentsjane.